So, I had a Master. I guess. He trained me to all his kinks to the point they became my kinks too. Right? So we had our way. He made his demands, I obeyed and everything was good. But then he wanted more and more, needing me to be more degraded, humiliated and doing unspeakable acts. I was losing myself to it and the more I gave, the more he pulled away. When I finally said no, he ghosted. Gone. I cannot get his attention unless I do what he demands. How long will he wait? Will he ever cave?

You should seek a Master that suits your needs and he should seek a submissive who suits his.